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A Few Thoughts On Living Alone

A Few Thoughts On Living Alone

A Few Thoughts On Living Alone
Sent in by MJ, FL

You know, it's not all that bad. I've lived alone more years than I've lived with anyone, including my childhood years. 20 years on my own now...

Not that I never thought about getting married or anything, just that my life always felt so busy - too busy to dedicate any time to a relationship. My days always seemed to just fly right by me. One day bleeds into the next and before you know it, another year has slipped quickly away.

But every so often there are those nights.

You know the kind. Those nights where you see the perfect moon glowing in a clear summer night sky, when the stars glisten with a magic all their own. You feel a warm gentle breeze kiss your skin and play with a few tendrils of hair, and you think... 

"Lord how I wish I could share this beauty with someone special - someone just for me." The muffled sounds of life teeming about you slowly fade as you stare at this beautiful sky - and there you are - alone again with your thoughts - and wondering, always wondering... "...was I meant to live alone the rest of my life?"

Now these are scarey thoughts for me. Sometimes there are sleepless nights I lay awake thinking to myself "Why haven't I found that special someone - that one person that would make everything feel right for both of us?"

These thoughts always lead to things like "Have I tried to find my soulmate? Is it my own fault I'm here alone tonight?" I'll toss and turn, maybe hit the pillows a time or two, groan a bit, probably wake up the next day feeling sad, or worse, depressed, maybe even growly - yet I carry on pushing these thoughts to the back of my mind...

...until that next special night when I lay awake wishing I had done something about it.